Because you love me...

It was a year ago yesterday that Bei had his open heart surgery. Our adoption was a life changing event, but his surgery was a life saving event. Anyone who has seen Bei's hearty appetite would understand that it was concerning that in the first 5 months that we had him, he didn't gain any weight. His poor little heart was just working too hard.
To think that he only weighed 18-20lbs at 27 months is unbelievable. In my heart of hearts I just know that there are birth parents out there that loved him so much that they wanted him to live, even if it meant that he couldn't be theirs any longer. I just can't imagine making that ultimate sacrifice, I consider them courageous. I pray for peace regarding their decision. Perhaps, it played out differently than that, I will never know, but I know in my heart that he has been loved before.
So yesterday was a special day for us because Bei's surgery allows him to live a normal, healthy life. Anyway, when Bei got up in the morning, I brought him out to the couch and the first thing he said to me was "You're a good mom"...wow, it took me aback, this is not a line I have been feeding him, with hopes of having him repeat it to me. I looked at him, and said "why do you think I am a good mom?" Bei looked shy and said to me "because you love me". Oh my gosh...I could have just hugged the stuffings right out of him. I thought he was going to say because I give him popsicles ... It really made yesterday even more special to me. He is my gift from God and we are so blessed to have him in our life!


Pay back...

Bei could not wait to get outside to enjoy the snow today!

Remember in my last blog (do I dear say the word?), I "bragged" about Bei being so well behaved?? Well, the pre-schooler gods got me again. I knew they would...the very next day, Bei threw one heck of a tantrum because I wouldn't buy him a box of nerds. Mean and evil mom that I am. The following week we started his music class and they have a Thomas the Train station area for kids to play with and after allowing him to play for over an hour with the trains, I was hungry and ready to leave. This was a mega-tantrum that he threw, kicking, pinching and screaming. What? Where? It totally discombabilates me...he is such a calm kid normally...but I'm not bragging...really I'm not!

Today is our morning music class, however, Bei woke up and he was being very whiny and somewhat crying over silly things. So I gathered him in my arms to talk to him about his behavior; as I was talking to him, his lower lip was pouting and he was staring straight ahead watching the huge snowflakes fall outside our patio doors. It was like he was in a daze, not paying any attention to me, not blinking, just being mezmorized by the snow. I was saying to him "we have music class to day, are you going to throw a tantrum? or are you going to be a big boy for mom with no tears, no tantrums?" I was sure that Bei wasn't even listening, however, he suddenly said with a very straight face "sure will Boss Hog". I cracked up laughing and eventually so did Bei. I was not expecting that response if any at all...perhaps we are moving from tantrums to sassy???